Friday, April 23, 2010

I Really Miss These People

Well I just saw Erin (closest on the right) a couple weeks ago and I saw her a couple of months ago too so I miss her, but not as much as the others :) I REALLY miss the other girls. I haven't seen them since September. I've gone longer periods of time of not seeing them, but for some reason it feels like it's been forever. Part of the reason is because they're all going through such big life events right now, both good and bad, and I really want to be there with them to experience everything. I want to laugh and cry and celebrate and just sit around talking with them. I've known them since middle school/early high school and even though we went to different colleges and I haven't seen them on a regular basis since high school (8 years ago...omg, 8 years!!!) I still wish that we lived in the same area. And I'm jealous that they still do live in relatively the same area (with the exception of one that lives a few hours away). They all have their own exciting grown up lives and even though I know they miss me too, I also know that they're surviving just fine.

I, however, feel like a big part of my life is missing without them. I think the best way to explain it is this: You know how people get married because they know they've found the person they're meant to be with? Well I know these girls are meant to be my best friends. And yes, we talk on the phone and facebook each other often, but it's not the same as randomly deciding to meet for lunch or playing Apples to Apples on a Saturday night.

I hate being so far away from them. I know I need to accept the fact that where I am right now is most likely where I'll be the rest of my life and while I might eventually be able to visit them more often, I'll never be able to call them on a whim and invite them over to hang out. I also know that even though they are half way across the country, they are still only a phone call away and I'm forever grateful to be able to talk to them on the phone endlessly about the most random things. These girls have made me the person I am and I am so thankful to have them in my life, even if it's only by phone :)

1 comment:

Margie said...

I thougtht I would die when I could no longer visit my best friend. I know exactly how you feel, but keep good cheer. There is something so powerful about these extra-special friends, they never really leave us, forget us, or bail on us. Take for instance that Silla. I wouldn't see her for over 12 years, but who was it that was there for me when I needed her the most? Yea, that's what I mean. ;)

You never skip-a-beat with a best friend. You never walk alone. You are always a part of what makes each other, whole.

Best friends can't be replaced, but we can share them and plant their kindnesses along the paths of others. may not feel as 'home' yet, but the day will come when you can't fathom anywhere else being as important.